New Year's Grieve

5 am, first day of the year

clothes still stink of whiskey and beer

everything was going fine

till I saw your face in the bathroom line

Out of all of the parties on New Years Eve,

Why the fuck did you come here? Why the fuck don’t you leave?

As you give me a hug, I'm lost in your touch

Why the fuck is it that I love you so much?

There's a million more fish in the sea

A million more girls waiting to love me.

So why is it I'm so hung up on your eyes

When the fuck will I realize?

As you let go of me I come to my senses,

I feel you give me that look but I put up my defenses.

You can call me a coward, you can call me afraid

But there comes a time when even the brightest stars fade

I might be drunk

I might be bitter

I might be a punk

I might be a quitter

maybe I should've kept living the lie

maybe I shouldn't have said goodbye

but I know deep down it was the right thing to decide

even though it's tearing me up inside

Time to pass out and start the New Year

Thinking of you...wish you were here.

One Armed Scissor

yes this is the campaign

slithered entrails

in the cargo bay

neutered is the vastness

hollow vacuum

check the  oxygen tank

they hibernate

but have they kissed the ground

pucker up and kiss the asphalt now

tease this amputation

splintered larynx

it has access now

send transmission from  the one armed scissor

get away cut away

banked on memory

mummified circuitry

skin graft machinery

sputnik sickles found in the seats

self destruct sequence 

this station is non‑operational

species growing

bubbles in an iv loitering

unknown origin

is this the comfort of being afraid

solar eclipsed

black out the vultures 

as they wait

dissect a trillion sighs away

will you get this letter

jagged pulp sucked in my veins

i write to remember

cuz im a million miles away 

will you get this letter

jagged pulp sliced in my veins

i write to remember

Friend Forgotten

Such a shame when friends are pushed aside.

Along love’s wild and bumpy ride

I remember before she came along,

Our friendship used to be so strong.

But now it seems we're drifting apart

Because a woman has stolen your heart.

Just remember that it's very rare

That the love will be forever there.

And when the magic of love is gone,

You’ll need a shoulder to cry on.

Where’s the one who used to comfort you,

the one who used to help you through?

No one to tell you it’ll be okay,

The friend forgotten along the way.