Shifting and unsettled
like pebbles on the ocean floor
you approach my blind side
hoping your smell wont give you away
Bad news my dear
You cant hide from something that's a part of you
Like a dog chasing his tail
You will never win
So lose gracefully
Move on
Stress is like plaque
Slowly building up
Until finally, you clean it out
How do you clean it out?
Many people have many different forms of stress release
What if the thing you rely on to release your stress,
becomes the source of your stressors?
What then?
Goddamn stress building up like plaque
And when I close my eyes I don't see black
I see red, people dead, gettin shot full of lead, on their deathbed
I try to cope, smoke some more dope
Try to keep some hope
Before I hang myself with a rope
But the drugs don't satisfy
only temporarily pacify
the demons inside my soul
I wish I could control
But their bone deep, so i don't even bother
Built up over a lifetime from the lack of a father
Mom can't stay off the bottle
kids at school laugh cuz I waddle
And I got the ghetto turn signal that ya gotta toggle
And then people have the nerve to ask me
Whats your boggle?
Well the problem is honey
Without love, guidance, or money
Some cuts never heal
and its hard to tell whats real
and only morbid things appeal
When the evening news is comedy
And you laugh watching lobotomies
and your idea of sex is sodomy
Something went wrong
forced to be too strong
strength turned into sickness
my skin increased in thickness
and now the only things that bring me pleasure
i snort, inject, or measure
So welcome to my world
population 1
Don't worry bout that gun
I just carry it for fun
But sometimes something itches
When I look at all these bitches
Bleach blonde f-a-geez
driving daddy's s-u-veez
And then my grip gets tighter
my knuckles getting whiter
smith and wesson
teach the kids a lesson
And maybe some kid somewhere in sorrow
Won't get picked on tomorrow
